Her Hole

She is scared; scared of his words to become reality, scared of her ‘being’ be shattered, scared of walking on eggshells, scared of her soul feeling a penetrating pain, scared of becoming a ‘flesh’ skeleton, scared of dreaming the undreamt.

Living a life of his ‘someone’ for years, he questions what is you? You are ‘useless’! After being a part of him, being We, he says that she is incapable & unworthy to him. Words always have pinched her but she never bleed, this time its different. She is bleeding from a place he never thought she would have. When he gets hurt she comforts him, clean his wounds, make his heart at ease. Now she is hurt and the one who has to bring peace is her own self because a useless thing is not worth pacifying. She is trying hard to cover herself but more she covers, the more scared she is. Scared if she is actually useless of his care, attention or even a mere look. She is scared what if she fails to stop the blood from oozing, what if its TRUE.

But she knows that her time to feel hurt is short, she need to pack her anxiety well because its useless to him, she need to wrap it well and dig it at an unknown place. She got her part to play and has to continue playing it, at the same time trying giving herself a different interpretation of ‘useless’ before he drops a new character of him. AND SHE CONTINUES!!